I didn’t have my license until I was almost 19 because I didn’t think I needed it. I lived in a small town in Maryland and I could walk anywhere I needed to go. When I moved to Wisconsin, it was alarming to realize how far apart everything is spread. I did have a car for most of the time that I was living there.
During my time of state-hopping in 2010, I had decided not to pay my car payments. Eventually, they caught up with me and took the car a little past midnight. It scared the shit out of me. What will I do without a car? How will I get anything accomplished?
This has been a perpetual problem since I lost my car. I moved to Colorado in August of 2010 and at first, it wasn’t an issue because I didn’t have a job. As for joy rides, Mom let me borrow her car. Then that car died and I was still unemployed so I was basically trapped in the house.
I got hired almost a year ago, after six months of unemployment, and there was some initial difficulty in getting me to and from work. I managed to make it work. When I moved out of my mother’s house, it was even more difficult to get rides, but my employers launched a new program where I would be able to work from home. Oh the joy of this announcement!
I quickly applied and I was one of the first accepted because I’m awesome at my job (it’s really easy). So now, I work at home. I’ve moved again since I started doing home-based, but it’s still the same. I stay at home and work and write. I clean a lot to keep my sanity intact. And since Josh had a car, we were able to get things accomplished: groceries, appointments, a new tattoo, etc.
Now that he doesn’t have a car, we’re stuck here together. He managed to get rides to work these last three days. And because of the snow, Mom couldn’t take me to get groceries these last couple of days. We’re still fine there… we will be for another few days but we’re out of chocolate milk and that’s a shame.
Josh was very upset when the car died and asked the same question I did, “What will we do?” I reassured him that we would be fine. It would suck for a couple of weeks, but we would make it work. He continued to lament the fact that he was car-less and I got angry with him. “Stop complaining. You’ll get a new car. You’re acting like this is the worst thing that could happen to you.”
And today, I am desperately wishing that we had a car. I feel bad for yelling at him and then doing the same thing he was. The pain under my right rib-cage started last night and it intensified this morning. I dealt with some health issues last summer and if this is the same thing, I’m going to scream. It got much worse much more quickly this time than last, which worries me.
I’ll make it work, because I always do. What other choice is there? I’m certainly not going to die. It might just hurt a lot for a while. I’m hoping I can hold out until Monday because that’s my next day off and I know I can get a ride to the clinic then. Can’t really afford to miss work.
I am looking forward to the pain pills they’ll give me because those things work amazingly on my headaches. Really kills all the pain, lol.
Oh and before I end this entry, I wanted to thank my recent new followers. So… thanks. 🙂